Hey love, i won't be there anymore
Dont know whether you even remember my name
Remember not to cry love, it never was your fault
I only got myself to blame.

MARISSA❤

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Hey guys, my name is Marissa, also known as Marvin, if you get the inside joke. Anyway, This blog is only meant for the sake of my feelings, so if you too aren't happy with life or if you think that I am too emo for your own good, kindly press the little red button at the corner of your screen.

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Like heroin, it numbs
The pain is never felt
open my bloodshot eyes
and watch reality melt

I'm lost in this illusion,
Dreams coming from the bed
Stop haunting me,being always there
Please get out of my head

Broken up, we're far apart
Our hearts scream in unison
At the brink of insanity,
Our minds cant stand the tension

Lost in each other's world
No point of secrecy
At the end,we are found
Begging for sweet mercy

The lovers in the night
They want to last forever
Dreading every moment
they have without each other

Each time the couples fight
Their bonds are slightly cut
Some are simply too tired
and long for both to part

My friends, they complain:
My boyfriend is a mess!
He doesn't treat me right at all
Staying single is the best!

And soon the next day,
broken hearts fill the scene
Souls wander away
Not knowing what love means

But they don't know anything
how lucky that they are
They had love and a fulfilled heart,
While the road to mine is still quite far

You better cherish him
And never let him go
There are people who're not so lucky
that travel their lives alone

As for me, im one of them
Those lost and never found
Those who disappeared away
without a wanted sound

So count your stars and keep your lover
No chance to go to waste
While others ponder about this 'love'
which they havent got to taste

The holidays are here,
won't be seeing you soon
I only know that we'll be looking
At the same moon.

While you're laughing and
enjoying yourself with her,
i'll be sitting at home
and just looking at your picture

Surely i'm not spending the time
together with you
You will be too busy
doing the things that you should do

like:
taking her for long walks
and going to the movies.
And i'll be busy thinking about
the person that i miss

Don't worry i'll be okay
Even if you think im not
It's just that your girl is simply
Everything That I'm Not.

Baby, what could have been
Is what will never be.
We had the chance, now it's lost,
We're broken, can't you see?

The lame may walk,
The dumb may speak,
But our souls will never be connected
When it's love that we seek

You don't have to say you're sorry
Or even complain to her
My broken heart will never be the same
It will stay wounded forever.

What are you doing to me?
Still stuck in my head
Why am i stressed so much
When i know that you're not my fate?

I'm walking down the wrong path
With despair as company
My life is stained throughout with
The darkened symphony

I've been waiting for the day
that will never come true
The day that i will be united
together with you.

But then instead, my mind's a mess
i really can't seem to think straight
Just confused with what i feel;
is this Love or is this Hate?

No inspiration for my work,
i can't concentrate at all
My teachers scold me every time,
Kicking me when i fall.

You may not know it but
you are the cause of this confusion
My thoughts of you disrupt my work
You are my delusion

This is not just a poem,
this is how i feel
Don't blink in disbelief,
You know my pain is real.

With broken wings
i guide the souls
the spirits sing
of their unwanted roles

This neglected cut
becomes and abrasion
compared to the heart,
it does the invasion

Our bleeding lives
we are the outcasts
as death arrives
our crazed mind rusts

The darkened shadows
steal our space
with feelings so shallow;
their hollowed face

These chains, they bind
forgotten memories
leave them behind
ignore the injuries

I want to forget
the hardened past
the misery shared
who'd knew it last?

With stinging tears
and grieving shudders
we relive our fears
trapped in the gutters

When mercy comes
and washes our sins
it screams the psalms
with demonic hints

Hold my hand,
believe in me
with you i'll stand
Now that we're free.

Death is merely
just an option
Life is a moment
When we must learn

that love is only
a selfish word
that gives us pleasure
yet it hurt.

This pair of scissors;
break the bonds,
Freeze the fire and
Destroy the thorns

It's been a long month,
Your heart is weighed
you cant tell the difference
between love and hate

This crown of misery
bestowed onto you
The sweeping shadows
made as your hue

Curse that blesses,
but grants suffering
Hear these shallow whispers
of that i sing

Death is merely
just an option,
Life is a moment
When we must learn.

Baby Jesus,
love so sweet,
touch that amazes
a little kid

I'm on my knees,
begging you please;
Don't you take him
away from me.

Sitting in your corner,
one is friend deprived,
Ravens screech a loner's song
To touch your pointless life.

The people pass,
Ignorance raised,
You turned to them
with a posioned gaze

The reason she gave
was not enough;
You wanted love,
not feelings so rough.

____________________________

Staring out the window,
one has abandoned care,
raindrops whip onto the glass
as i watch my heart strings tear

The flowers wither,
petals half dead,
Gloom reaches me
with unbinding hate.

I have no reason,
for me to feel life
Just wasting my time staring
at that murderous knife

____________________________

Two people in this world,
lost without a name
Think real hard and then you'll know
that we are just the same

Even though we're broken,
our lives a different tone,
I'll let you know baby,
that you are not alone.

Your feelings' a mess
your hopes are shot down too.
But just remember me
Baby, i'm with you.

Sat with you in the bus today,
just wanted to talk to you
And when we saw each other, i thought
that you had wanted to chat too

But when i came, friend alongside,
You took the chance to say:
"I'm going out, it's getting boring":
That sentence ruined my day.

Coming home from school that night,
i saw your name in my MSN list
Then a quote, message of the day,
It really made me pissed

"the sixth of may is the day,
the day i found my love"
Congratulations on finding her
and tearing my heart's weakened nerves.

I'm trying to find a way
To forget your recurring face
But still, your voice, its haunting me
like the ghosts of the darkened lace

This lace, it binds me,
with heart wrenching pain,
Wont you please, take them away
remove these dreaded chains?

I'm feeling lonely
No one to be with
Even you are not here
No reason to live;

My friends, they desert me
to pursue their hopeless dreams
And find their desired loved ones
that match their every whim

i have no inspiration to write now. =\

Hey love, i think im bleeding
I'm feeling numb now,
Can't hear my breathing
See you kneeling beside me
Shedding guilty tears
My vision's in darkness,
Embracing my darkest fears

Even though i said
that i lived only for you,
You still took my heart
And then what did you do?

You broke the fragile thing,
Shattered hopes and forgotten dreams
Vanishing before my eyes
I guess your love isn't what it seems

"I don't love you anymore"
Was that what you said?
Well, let me ask one thing of you
Before these feelings fade:

Without your love,
i won't cry;
Without your love,
i would DIE.

And now, guess what?
i'm halfway there.
These wounds can't heal,
though i doubt you'll even care

So long, love,
Good luck with that whore.
Sorry dear but,
I won't be there anymore.

Dear love;

I'm sorry i'm not going
to see you off later today
i'm walking home alone,
not going to watch you play.

I just need some time
to be with myself,
just need to think things over, like:
You and that Someone else.

i wonder why my heart
is aching because of this.
Why my plastered wounds
are rubbed with this salted kiss.

When i heard the dreaded news,
my paperheart ripped in two
How could you do this to it
when it only beat for you?

I'm sorry that i thought
i even had a chance,
I'm sorry that i fell in love
without the simplest sense

I gave you everything,
You were my life
But now that you've gone,
The joy is yet to arrive.

A few days ago,
i grasped that sharp blade
And saw on my wrist
The carvings that it made

Those lines reminded me
about the heartache that you gave,
about the tears that i shed
When i remembered your face.

Just bleeding my sorrows
onto this scarred letter,
Just trying to let you know
The memories are here forever.

JUST SAYING:

I'm still waiting for that someone
to free me from this pain
Sorry love, it won't be you,
not ever again.

hey readers.
Been getting abit depressed lately.

the next poem will be about this
REALLY sad thing in my life.

Hope you like my previous ones though (;

have a super nice day loves. <3

I walk this path
of forgotten souls,
to chase the devil's cat;
my heart it stole.

I run this road
of broken lies,
to visit the ghosts
and hear their cries.

I swam through the darkness
where your body laid,
and dug out your grave,
with flesh decayed.

One step forward,
See her weep!
See the chains hanging from her hip!

Two steps forward,
See her tears pour!
As she stumbles cross the dirty floor!

Another step forward,
See her cry!
When she know's she's going to die!

She stops, she hesitates,
She glances at the noose.
The crowd goes wild,
"There's not a moment to lose!"

A final step forward,
She prays to God
to grant her paradise
after the battle she fought.

She puts her head
through the loop and BAM!
we have witnessed the death
of Emily Stamp.

I SWEAR:
i will love you till the end of my days,
i will need you like i need to breathe,
you'll always have me, i'll never stray,
This bond between us will never fray.
My heart will beat only for you
With this vow, i will stay true.
But if i should ever break this "curse",
Please do the steps on the following verse:

Love another,
Rip out my heart.
Checking out another,
Gorge my eyes out.
Kiss another,
Tear apart my lips.
Till i treat that other
like a passing ship.

This is the promise i must keep,
Now the tea from this dreaded cup i sip.

Your eyes, they twinkle,
the darkest star
Your hair, it sways
like unwounding tar

Til the time of that fateful hour,
the residue of your blood remain
A rose; it's thorns, a withered flower
Will we ever be saved again?

I give you my lungs,
so you can breathe
I give you my soul,
So you can live

I give you my heart,
So that you can love too,
Now can't you see
what i'm doing for you?

Hey loves,

This blog is just to post my poems.
Im just an amateur (;
No criticism please,
i'm just doing this for the sake of my feelings.